No more first dates

Last night, Brian and I had a hot date doing our most favorite thing...studying/doing homework. Tiny bit of sarcasm there ;) Anyhow, as we were staring into laptops while our fingers fluttered all over the keys of our keyboards, I noticed a couple about college age wander into Starbucks. When I realized that I didn't recognize them, I tried to shift my focus back to my reading. However, my easily distracted brain couldn't help but eavesdrop once I realized that if this was not their first date, they had just begun dating because they were terribly awkward with each other. I smiled and began thinking about how awkward my first date with Brian was. In fact, we didn't even like each other on our first date! Thankfully, the friends that set us up lied to both of us saying that the other one asked for a second date, when neither of us did...thanks again for that Sarah!! So anyhow, as I'm reflecting on how strange first dates can be, I realized, neither Brian or I will ever go on a first date again. For those of you that are staring at your screen confused, yes, we are indeed engaged. I had just never thought through it in these terms...no more first dates. No more ice breakers. No more uncomfortable moments when the check comes. No more dorky giggles at dorky jokes because you want him to know you like him (actually, in my case, saying "yes" means agreeing to do that for the rest of my life, ha!). Most importantly, no more putting on a show. When I first made the connection that I would never have another first date, I wasn't sure how I felt about it. Then I looked across the table and saw the incredible man that God has placed in my life that somehow manages to grow handsomer every day, and I nearly laughed out loud. I am SO thrilled that I get to date Brian for the rest of my life!! There isn't another human on this planet that I am more "me" with. I never put on a show with him, because I know that what he loves most is when I am myself. Does it get any sweeter than that?? Seriously, he is the Prince Charming that I didn't think actually existed. Are you nauseous yet? I'm sorry, I just can't help it ;) The man that I have prayed for God to bring into my life has asked me to be his wife, can you blame me?

Oh, and when we left, I glanced back at the new couple. She was giggling dorkily as he grinned from ear to ear. I think they like each other ;)